The summers between us.
The age that I am.
At times, I wish that I never met you.
At times, I wonder what would be of my life now, if you were never in it.
I do not want to owe any of my successes to you.
We spoke on Father’s Day and we saw each other for the first time in over 3 months the day after.
When I saw you, it felt as if my heart was a field full of budding flowers that suddenly bloomed. I have only been a fool for one other man, and he ruined me. I fear the same with you.
I don’t want to depend on you. I don’t need your help. I don’t want to owe you anything.
I wanted to hear what you had to say and see if you were sorry. After an hour of hearing you, I asked “why” with frustration and a tear streaming down my face, and another ready to fall. I would have left if I didn’t feel you were sorry, I would have left if I didn’t see you be human for once.
Your eyes weld up while seeing mine, I don’t really remember what you said.
Thats all I wanted to see.
I want an FLR, I want a full and happy life with you.