you are my downfall, I hate to admit it.
what is it about you that brings me to my knees? Figuratively though, because I never let my legs touch the floor when I’m pleasing you.
My balance surprises you sometimes. Leaves you breathless, maybe?
It would be so much better if you didn’t know what you do to me…but a dumb man you are not, even though I lovingly call you my dummy.
I refused to cry for you, or over you, and I held it in for months. One night, it all burst through the stronghold and I cried senselessly, realizing and accepting that you did not love me with the same intensity that I loved you. How foolish I am, for falling in love with you.
I am seeing you today,
and I have to admit I am a little nervous.
As strong as I know I am, you are my downfall.
You are the spear that pierces through me and brings me down. My final blow.
I am not sure what will happen after today.
It feels almost as if this affair was a complicated game of chess.
I am unsure how I was able to get this far. Pure luck, most likely, as that tends to be the foundation of all my successes. Because I don’t know anything about this game, I played it cool. But I had you fooled though, in the first half, enough to make you nervous and believe that I did.
now its me who’s nervous, I have no counsel. but god, do I love a challenge and the adrenaline of having everything on the line.